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  • My very first tattoo... i went 40 a couple of months ago and finally i did it, although it was supposed to be coloring my skin since i was -at least- 15 years old. My love for this way of expression comes from many, many years ago, the idea of having a tattoo was something like making some kind of magic. But the idea of something permanent -which is part of the excitement- was also the factor that always made me think of it. I can't recognize if i was too mature or too afraid of making something to my body that will change the way i look for my whole life, i needed to be pretty sure of what i was going to do.

    In the meantime, when i was around 19, i made myself a tattoo artist, not sure if i was really an artist, but you can be sure i tried to do my best... always. I made some interesting stuff, beginning with my friends, and then their other friends, and so. I am a Graphic Designer, and by that time (circa 1990) the people -guys and gals- were starting to love tattoos, it was no longer that "convicted / sailor" idea that our fathers used to have about them, and in Mexico City there were barely a couple of tattoo studios. Well, I even considered converting myself a pro, a full time tattooer... an idea i didn't take too seriously so it never took shape, but looking in retrospective i think it would have been a very good decision. Still, i kept on tattooing from time to time, as a hobby, not as much as when i was in my 20's, i think we all grew up and the interest on tattoos faded away.

    In 2006 a very sad event shook my life. My little daughter Jimena, with 2 and a half years old died. The saddest days of my life.

    I won't take longer on this topic as it deserves a text on it's own, but it is relevant as it was a "bomb" that exploded and destroyed good part of our lives. Tania, my wife, and I started the recovery process, came back from the ruins and started to look at life in a different kind of way, months later that included the idea of making a tattoo, a tribute tattoo. It was the most secure idea for a tattoo, because beyond the design, even beyond the way it looks, if it's pretty or ugly, it would have a huge meaning on itself. At the beginning we thought on making the very same tattoo for both of us, a horse (Jimena loved horses). And by the time we were throwing ideas –with no pressure at all- Tania, got pregnant... 9 months later we were changing diapers to a couple of baby girls, non-identical twins. Lúa and Greta.

    Life: “She moves in mysterious ways”

    Lúa and Greta, two charming little angels that came to pour a lot of joy to our lives, they are 4 now. Finally Tania and I have the time to make this tattoo we were postponing since some years ago, besides i was about to turn 40! We used to talk from time to time about the tribute tattoo, and something good about leaving this topic on standby all these years was that our initial idea changed. Tania still wanted the horse, but no names attached to it, just a horse, a very personal tribute to Jimena. My idea also changed, i didn't want the horse anymore i thought it was like something unfair for the rest of my children (Lúa, Greta and my first son, Javi -17 y.o-, from my first marriage) to make a tribute to a "ghost". Javi also loved Jimena, and he suffered when she left us, he was 12. On the other hand my twins would grow up watching this with cult to a dead person. I don't know maybe all of them would understand, but it was not the right thing to do for me. So i changed my idea and decided to make tribute to all my children.

    I payed the tattoos since november in a very spontaneous way I didn't even told Tania, I just gave the tattooer a small rough sketch of what we were thinking and ask him to wait for us until we had the exact idea of what we wanted. He agreed and later i gave Tania the news. We both were very excited and got our tattoos on january. Tania choose the horse and also a moon (she divided her initial idea of a single tattoo in two).

    I went for a classic image, something similar to what i saw many years ago to a tourist in Cancun: a flaming heart. I know it has a direct reference to a religious image “The Sacred Heart of Jesus”, but in my case there's no religious motif, it's just my heart burning for love to my kids. The initials of my kids are listed in the ribbon. It took two sessions. The last one, for coloring, was last wednesday and i'm pretty happy with it, still i'm already thinking of making some future arrangements.

    And as i'm getting older and i finally broke that "fear" barrier i used to have when i was younger, I'm also already thinking on new ideas for more tattoos. Even more, watching Moises, the tattoo artist, working on our skin i'm also thinking on returning to the tattoo world. I asked him if he would be willing to give me some tips and tricks in order to receive a refresh to the actual tattoo techniques. He's a very kind guy and we had good chemistry, so he agreed... who knows –just as Moises told me- maybe in the future i'll be drawing on my tattooer's skin. I hope so.
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