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  • So growing up I ha..was always a planner. I had, you know, set goals and I knew how I was gonna meet them. So in high school I decided I wanted to go to UNC and that led me to move to North Carolina at 18 right out of high school. And this was a huge step for not only myself, but my family as well. You know, no one in my family has ever moved very far away. I mean they'll move like cities, but they've never moved out of Texas so I was definitely, um, venturing into new territory there. Um, I was excited though, I was super, super excited and you know I was like, "I'm gonna go to a community college for a year, I'm gonna get my instate residency and I'm gonna make it to UNC and graduate and build a life, you know I had all these dreams and they were all set in North Carolina. Don't ask me why, I don't really know why North Carolina, but they were. Um, (pause) so anyway, my family um supported me through that decision and they moved me up there and my real freak out moment was when I dropped my brother, sister, mom and dad off at the airport and I watched them walk into the airport. And, what was going through my head was not, "Oh my god now I'm living alone", cause I wasn't, I was with a really awesome family for the first year, but more just, you know the move to me was really permanent. It wasn't a, "Oh I can just go back to Texas if it doesn't work out". You know, that wasn't really in my mind as an option and so I..I flipped. Like that drive home was awful, I was like, "what if, you know what if....i cant find a job, what if school doesn't go the right way, what if something happens to my family, what if, you know, just all sorts of things were going through my head and, um, I had no idea what to do, you know..i was...I was alone in a different state without my family. I wasn't a twenty minute drive away, I was, you know, three months of planning and a huge expensive plane ticket away. So that was very new to me and very scary. Well turns out,after working really, really hard and achieving all my goals my freshman and sophomore year in community college, you know as far as GPA and honors programs and stuff. I applied to UNC and they were like, oh we don't accept sophomores so you're gonna have to wait another year..I applied after my freshman year. So I kinda like nixed them off the list cause I was like well I don't want to wait that long. And then I decided well Ill just go to NC State, all my friends are there, and turns out NC State didnt want to accpet me as an instate resident, despite being legally accepted as an instate resident and expected to pay state taxes, etc. Whole different story. But, um, no that was stuff I couldn't control, so it was like that first day freak out actually wound up happening. Not in the hectic way that I dreamed it up in the car on the ride home, but you know all those fears of, you know, what if, what if school doesn't work out, you know what am I gonna do, I cant just go back to Texas, well it actually wound up playing out that way and I had to really, you know, take some, make some big decisions and take some steps and talk to my family and you know it worked out, I am obviously at the University of Texas with you guys! So happy to be here, by the way, um definitely don't regret that one! But, um, it was interesting. It was a (pause) tremendous growing period in my life and I had never had a first day freak out like that, I (pause) had never made a decision that big and you know that left me so alone to where I was so scared of failing. You know in my mind, I had to succeed, there was no going back, just, oh just move back home so that was scary and my first day story!
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