I stopped back by Helen's this week to fill in some gaps from the last time i interviewed her. She made me eat a lot of fruit again, we recorded a little more and then we moved beyond memories of loss and genocide to talk about everday life. Right before i left she said she could see i was in some sort of struggle and asked what it was all about. I laid it out for her truthfully and dismissively all at once. The worrying, the money, the projects and plans... all that business that each of us have to deal with. I usually do pretty good with keeping my head up in the face of uncertainty but it's been on me pretty heavy this week. Anyway, she told me this.
"When you get my age, you probably aren't going to remember much about the particular things you are experiencing right now but... you WILL look back at this period in your life and remember how happy you were. So try and be happy."
Coming from a woman who has walked, fled, hid, grieved and tried in ways that most haven't, it's wisdom i have to take in and do something with. So i'll try.