I miss you
I wish I wasn't such a prick to you sometimes
I miss looking at my passenger seat and seeing you there
I wish I let you throw me in the water, even on the coldest days
I miss you waiting outside of work for me
I have never needed one of your hugs
I miss your goofy laugh
I wish that we could go back to the bars, even though I was miserable most of the time
Its been awhile since I've met someone that I care about
I wish I didn't take advantage of you always being there
48 hours have barely passed, and I know I do this all the time to myself, but I can genuinely say that I insanely underestimated how much you mean to me. You were and are so amazing, even when I was an angry, PMSing girl that needed to get a reality check. Now that we aren't in the same state, my soul feels empty. You were exciting; a breath of fresh air and so much more to me. For once, I had a good guy in my life.
You won't see this. I guess that's good? But I miss you a lot, and I care about you even more, and none of this makes sense, but something in me has a feeling I need to tell you all of this before my time runs out.
Stay. Stay. Stay. You're the only person that thinks it's funny when I'm mad.