On April 27, 2012 I underwent emergency surgery for stage III colon cancer. My path report showed one rogue node was positive. So now I have an oncologist, and am trying to sort through how to approach chemotherapy so that it doesn't feel like I'm waging war on what has been up until now, this sturdy body of mine.
This photo of the Pacific Ocean was taken at Long Marine Lab in Santa Cruz. I was there with my grandson, who was five at the time. As he peered over the cliffs at the water that day he declared, "It's the edge to the world." Recovering from surgery and waiting for chemo to start, I feel like I am at the edge of the world.
This story was first on published on cowbird in May 2013, but I pulled all of my "cancer stories" off the internet several weeks into treatment. I am just now feeling ready to make this private part of my life public again. I have been back to work as a nurse-midwife a little more than six months, and I am trying to create a home for everyone's stories in my clinical practice. I am starting with the stories of my own illness.