I am quickly approaching my next birthday which will be the BIG 5-0. I’m not sure how I feel about that. It is a very sobering thought when I realize that more than half my life is over. I look ahead with uncertainty of what the future holds. I’m a bit fearful of the financial status, will I have Social Security when I retire? Will I have to work until I die? I look ahead and I see three kids going to college, how can we afford that? With two daughters comes two weddings, how can we afford that?
I also look ahead and wonder how can I make the rest of my life matter? I think about all the good things I could be doing, volunteering here or there, mentoring youth,starting some cool non-profit, writing a book? It’s daunting and exciting to think of these things, but day to day life get’s in the way, the mundane like working a job just to make a living, the daily grind stuff. So many thoughts about turning 50 somedays I just try not to think about it, it’s just another day right? As the day approaches I will look at all my blessings that have been given thus far, I really can’t complain God is good, food on the table, roof over our heads, bills get paid. I guess I need to take stock of all the good, live in the moment and not worry about the future. Turning 50 will be just another day, another chance to be a better person, a better father-husband, a better me.