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  • I was on the phone with Jessica (everyone I know is named Jessica, just about.) and we were commiserating as women who have endured similar lives- I won't get too into it just imagine two who met as high achieving art school students, now long graduated discussing long-term unemployment, odd jobs, living with our parents as adults and the resulting bravery we need to smite incessant confusion, shame and insecurity.

    All of a sudden I came up with the romantic idea of making a LIST of everything that is going to HAPPEN in my life and exactly HOW I want it to HAPPEN. Ugh! WOw!

    Then I forgot about that idea for a week. Then I remembered the idea and decided to carry it out. I started writing how I am going to earn money, live, have a set group of friends, travel, fall in love, publish books, die of non excessive pain in old-old age and I got so bored making the list I had to stop.

    I knew all the desirable stuff by heart already, but writing it down seemed to be some sort of a mind-closing rite of initiation into a pre-lived life of grand disappointments.

    Like most people I don't know exactly what is going to happen to me. My life so far has been half train ride window seat- half steered bicycle experience and I'd rather keep it that way. To list was to limit.

    Readers, I hope you like my theme song.
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