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  • I've written a few times before about the book I read, a couple times last year, called "A Year to Live - How to Live This Year as if it Were Your Last", by Stephen Levine. As the book suggested, I picked a day, August 20th, as the first day of my "last year", and have committed myself to living this year as if it were, indeed, my last. In this, my "last year", I've just passed the halfway point - I'm halfway home.

    It's been a truly amazing year, so far. If it truly were my last year on earth, I would not be disappointed with a week, a day, an hour, nor a minute of it. Part of my commitment was to "show up" for every moment. To be here - right now. Today being my last February 26th, I don't want to leave anything about this day undone or unfinished. When I learned that Metro would be single-tracking, meaning my commute would take twice or maybe 3 times as long, my thought was "good! I'll bring extra reading material". I'm digging the hell out of this Metro ride. Work will be there when I get there, and everyone will be late anyway, so no big deal.

    Part of the commitment has also been the "Life Review". Whenever a thought or a memory, or a long held belief or concept of the truth, reveals itself to me, instead of just accepting these things as still my "truth", I am challenging them, challenging myself, to take another look. Peel back the layers of the story I have told myself, about myself and my life, to look at what might lay hidden below that surface thought or memory, to what I might have missed, or forgotten, way back when.

    Also, to be open to the idea that maybe things have changed about the way certain people or groups of people are. Maybe, just as I have grown and become just a little wiser with age, maybe they have, too.

    How does all this looking at the past help me to live in the moment? Ironically, it really does. By re-evaluating the truth of my own beliefs, I am reinforcing the foundation upon which my self is built. By shoring that up, I stand much more firmly in the moment, blessed with the added wisdom and grace of a life examined.

    I also stand in a better position to be of use and service to my fellow travellers, some of whom may be struggling with something I've grappled with myself. By revealing the truth of my struggle, to myself and others, I have nothing to hide, so I am more open and vulnerable - necessary ingredients to approachability.

    The train just reached the halfway point in its journey into town, and work, about an hour in on what is normally a 35 minute ride. Halfway there is a jammin' place to be. Here's to making the most of the second half of the journeys!
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