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  • It’s been rough. Really rough. I’ve had some high highs and some low lows. Before I say anything else, let me say that I do not regret any of my decisions and I do not regret Jackson in any way. It’s just been very hard these past couple of months…

    Some days I just get so frustrated because I can’t put J down for more than a minute or two before he wants me to hold him again. I feel bad because I know he is clingy for a reason but I often wish that his father would do. We hardly go for walks anymore because J almost always needs to be held (by me only!) and I get so tired (physically) and the weather is so much warmer now.

    I love J so much though. I wouldn’t do this any other way. I have stuck to my guns so to speak. I haven’t relied on plopping him in front of a tv. I have remained the kind of mom I want to be. It just isn’t easy.

    Sometimes I feel like I am participating in a new sport that might be called “Xtreme Parenting!”. My life as a mom has been one of extremes – an amalgamation of highs and lows with very few “in-betweens”.
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