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  • I don't think I've felt this way for such a long time, if ever. As the feeling dissipates, I'm trying to examine myself for it's origins, it's genesis; look inside instead of without. But I'm at a loss. I'm familiar with the tight-stomach feeling of being confronted by an upset customer. That I can handle. But this is different. This is the gut-hollowing feeling of realising someone else's complete mistrust of you. Their (completely unwarranted but) absolute disbelief in your competence. Their blind belief that they know better than you.

    Is that it?
    Can I call this feeling 'rage', built out of my own pigheaded belief that I know everything, and am an entirely capable human being?
    Or is it (far more justifiably?) a feeling of betrayal, founded on the realisation of a mistaken belief that this is a workplace where your workmates trust your judgement.

    Perhaps my main problem is that 'apparently' there is no problem. At least from their perspective.
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