Suddenly something in the world feels wrong.
You never truly realize just how much a person means to you until someone makes you doubt that. A couple people have unknowingly put me to this test, making me doubt my relationship, as well as my decisions, I might stand unsupported at times, and I might feel a little weak at times, but I seem to always be able to get through eventually. People putting me to this test range to people I really don't care about, used to be friends, and loved ones. I felt unsure and ready to just take the easy way out and just give up finding happiness all together, then I realize, it's not about making things easier, it's not about what other people say or what I myself thinks that makes the situation, it's those moments of truth. Moments of truths where you think back to a particular person and snippets of sweet memories come to you, those moments are the ones showing you the truth. Just how much a person means to you.
Moments of truths. Like the time you drove all the way back to my place to be next to me when I was feeling like a wreck. Like the time I really wished I could see you and you showed up to my place 15 minutes later. The look on your face when I first see you step out of work. The way you held the flower up to me when we celebrated our 1 month. The way you said "Baby, what's wrong." When I was being unreasonable and didn't want to talk anymore. The sound of that text coming through my phone 1 minute after we hung up on a bad note, telling me how much you cared. The way you act when you are around the people I love. The way you hold me when I'm tossing and turning in bed.The way I sense my insecurity kicking in and somehow you turn back to take my hand. That kiss on the forehead during my sleep; enough for me to notice but not too much to wake me from my sleep.The hand on my forehead when I'm sick. The way you are always by my side when we go to events. Those random I miss you's. And most preciously... the jokes and the sound of your laughter when we are around each other. And those phone conversations on the phone every night that never seems to get more and more meaningful as the days pass by.
It takes only a refresher of those moments of truth for me to really realize, I don't care what other people think and say, they might think they know, they might be so sure, but the honest truth is, they know absolutely nothing about us. Absolutely nothing, which is far from what we have, absolutely something.
And then suddenly. everything in the world feels right again.