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  • Everything that I've been through this past couple of years has taken a toll. Losing my mother to cancer, becoming suicidal, losing my friend to suicide. Exhaustion and illness followed (hardly surprising with the stress levels) and I have not been the same person I was, wondered in fact, whether I’d ever find anything I could recognise as the old me again. Attempting to carry on, a bit bruised by life and somehow less able to find things I wanted. Perhaps not really sure what I need from life at all, time has passed and I have held to the small things and felt very static and disconnected to the larger picture.

    Lately I've decided to face that and do some inner work. Centering myself on what's really going on with me. Finding, surprisingly that desire is the key to waking up the parts of myself that have been dormant. Discovering in this process that I still have any desire, where I haven’t for such a long, long time has been an energising surprise in itself. A surprise that is only a beginning to getting my life in better order, but as long as there is desire still present within me; I believe the capacity to achieve those things in some form is still within me too.
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