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  • When I was in high school I couldn't understand why so many colleges and universities talked up studying abroad as as a selling point. In my mind I was working hard to get into all these schools, why would I want less time at them when I had worked so hard to get permission to be there?

    Now, in my third year of university I completely get why people want to run away from their colleges and universities for a while.

    My original intention on coming to Sweden was to study at the Lund School of Economics-- one of the best economics schools in Europe. Since getting admitted to the program I'm no longer pursuing a major in economics.

    I have family in Sweden. I told people how coming here was a chance to get in touch with a part of my heritage I know little about. I just saw my extended family here for the first time this week. I've lived in the same town as them for five months.

    I joke that I came here for the cheap alcohol and good weather. Swedes never seem to get that I'm joking and it gets awkward as I have to explain, "no alcohol is actually cheaper in the US and California has very nice weather, even in the north."

    As my departure from home was looming I realized this was a chance to distance myself from painful relationships (all ex-girlfriends of course). And it worked. I accepted both failed relationships and internalized lessons from them. That didn't stop it from hurting each time the girls emailed me.

    I have a month left here and I can't wait to see my friends, but I'm terrified of having to face the actualization of desires to "still be friends."

    It's worth anything to have tacos again though, so California, I'll see you soon.
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