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  • In the Cottage by the sea. The North, UK. Caitlyn is 5 months pregnant.

    CAITLYN.
    Do you think I’ll be a good mum?

    JIMMY
    I don’t know what a good mum is. I hope so.

    CAITLYN.
    It’s the only thing I ever wanted.

    JIMMY
    Why?

    CAITLYN.
    Because it would be mine.

    JIMMY
    It would be ours?

    CAITLYN.
    It would. It is. We did make this baby. I am just trying to answer your questions. We did make this baby. I know we did.

    (Pause.)

    I don’t know whether this is the right baby, Jimmy. I don’t know...

    JIMMY
    Say that again.

    CAITLYN.
    I can hardly say it.

    JIMMY
    You don’t know whether this is the right baby?!

    CAITLYN
    I don’t want you to be angry with me. These are my deep... my deepest...I thought that you could help. I can, I can love this baby, I know I can!

    JIMMY
    You can’t choose your child, Caitlyn.

    CAITLYN
    I’m not trying to choose them.

    JIMMY
    Well what does that mean?! You just said you don’t whether this is the right one? This baby is coming!

    CAITLYN.
    I know this is our baby /

    JIMMY
    I’m really scared.

    CAITLYN.
    Why?

    JIMMY
    Because I knew.

    CAITLYN.
    What?

    JIMMY
    That you didn’t want it.

    CAITLYN.
    But it’s not... I haven’t done anything! This is.../

    JIMMY
    I’m not saying you’ve done anything, but you can’t choose / You don’t have the power to choose.

    CAITLYN.
    It’s already chosen us, that’s the thing! There’s no choice involved. It’s completely out of my control.

    JIMMY
    It’s not like last time, like before?

    (She cries, and shakes her head.)

    CAITLYN.
    Maybe we could still find her, Jimmy?

    (Jimmy doesn’t say anything.)

    Are you happy about us having this child, Jimmy?

    JIMMY
    I don’t know anymore. I don’t know what I feel.

    CAITLYN.
    Do you hate me?

    JIMMY
    Of course I don’t hate you.

    CAITLYN.
    You can do.

    JIMMY
    Why would I hate you?

    CAITLYN.
    Because you married me and then all this shit seems to be happening. It sounds crazy, I know. We’re having a baby, that’s what’s happening.

    JIMMY
    You don’t want it.

    CAITLYN.
    I do, I do, of course I do. Something will change, I know it will.
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