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  • It was a night to make amends: to clear the cobwebs from our minds and the negativity from our hearts.

    We ate dinner, or at least I tried. My heart was too busy shaking and thumping as the adrenaline pumped through my body after he walked past as himself and smiled.

    I had to sit touching my biro penned OM tattoo on my left wrist just to once again find my breath and remind myself of the left handed path of desire.

    We had driven the long, winding, deer-infested roads from Savannah to Bluffton and in a few hours we'd be driving back in the pitch dark so, we weren't drinking. Instead, after dinner, we went out to our VW ride of choice, drank Synergy Strawberry kombucha and laughed under the floodlights of the Golden Corral before heading back inside to watch the band play.

    It's nights out like this with my favorite 'band aids' that I feel my life has been a giant puzzle, the pieces clicking together all out of logical order.

    My teenage years growing up in Malawi were never filled with nights out to bars sitting in cars with friends drinking and laughing away. Instead I find myself in my 30s living out the teenage dream I always felt I had missed, but with much less alcohol.

    I find myself dancing, grinning and swooning over musicians that blow not only my ears, but also my mind. I find myself out of sync with the married ones, with the locals who have never left their home towns, with heavy-drinkers and working drones.

    And I'm thankful. I'm grateful that I didn't put the edges together before I began composing the picture of my life. The journey has been crazy, but amazing and I love that there are still so many pieces of my life that I need to figure out how to put into place.

    I have no idea what pieces comes next or if that piece will ever come. I'm simply loving the present moment while my heart soars up into the bright lights illuminating the darkness with love, laughter and joy.

    May this puzzle never be completed.
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