I do not know what evoked such deep feelings in me. Was it the stormy weather or was it the song? But does it matter? The fact is I had my beautiful girlfriend sitting next to me. She is the best I could ever get… what does not make my situation any better.
I love her, don't I? If I would, I would not been thinking about the Other though. The One I won't ever be with. The one I love?
I've messed up. I cannot stop thinking about her but I still love(?) my darling. I cannot stop viewing her pictures on the little screen of my laptop even though my sweetheart is sitting on the chair next to me.
It would be so much easier if only I could hope to be with the Other. However such an option does not exist. Too many things stand in between.
I've messed up!