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  • People often ask what my tattoo means and while I always tell them I very rarely share the story behind it. Today, I want to share it with this community. My mom is still with us. Sort of. My wife says, and I tend to agree, that mom is stuck between two worlds. The easiest way to explain her condition is a "coma-like state."

    I became a father in my young adult years. When I broke the news to my parents that they were going to be grandparents, as if I was doing them a favor, Dad chuckled and mom held back tears. Dad's chuckle made me nervous and mom's tears weren't that of joy but more like, "Sweet boy what have you done?"

    Jokingly I told my friends I pushed when I should have pulled, but that was simply to easy my nervousness of what was to come. I knew that even under the best of circumstances having a child is difficult and clearly the circumstances at the time weren't ideal. That's when mom stepped in.

    No matter what my gripe, Mom's catch phrase to me was, "Have Faith." I'm trying to finish college but I have to get a job to support the kid. Have faith, she'd say. I'm so broke, I need to drop out and work full time. Have faith. I don't now how to be a dad. Have faith. We're not even getting married or dating for that matter. Have faith. I can't do this. Have faith. What if I fail? Have faith. I don't want to hold him, I'm afraid I might break him. Have faith. On and on she went to the point where I grew very annoyed with her catch phrase.
    "I need more than faith. Faith isn't going to pay the bills, make me a better dad or help get me through this situation," I angrily shouted back one day."

    "Have faith," she said.

    Anger grew inside me.

    It wasn't until I matured a bit that I not only began to understand what she meant, but equally important I began to live by those words. Mom wasn't referring simply to having faith in God, though she is a very religious person and I'm sure that faith in God was the foundation of her catch phrase. Mom meant to have faith in my family, have faith in my friends and especially to have faith in myself. I once heard that moms were created because God couldn't be everywhere. That's a lot easier to believe when you "have faith."
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