Libby...
lovely Libby with tired eyes
perky perked up
medicated
with assurance
knowing what she speaks
Libby smiles
says casually...

it's not a death wish
it's a life wish
I want to feel today
I'll want to cut today..

today after crazy camp
camp crazy
I'll want to do it when I get home
I'll want to do it
take the razor
control the pain
feel the pain
decide how deep to sink it and when to drag or slice
and when to pull it out

there's satisfaction in the color
the flow the splatter
when all the cuts hurt just right
sometimes it's hard to stop
and a camper asked...
would painting with red
red
blood red help?
and we all leaned in to hear lovely Libby answer....