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  • I’m experiencing a nasty cold that’s kind of kicked my behind for a few days. It’s been quite awhile since I’ve been this sick (vertigo episodes notwithstanding). I don’t think I mind the physical aspects of being sick, though, nearly as much as I mind the mental.

    Seriously, my head goes to the worst places when I’m not feeling great. I do my best not to listen to it, or at least, to not believe what it’s trying to tell me – but, it’s not always easy to do that. It can be quite convincing.

    This cold came on Saturday afternoon. I had experienced a sneezing fit Saturday morning, when I was out to breakfast at a pancake place with a bunch of friends after a meeting. I was still feeling fine at that point, just started sneezing like crazy.

    The cold really hit me with full force that afternoon, and still has me in its grip, three days later. I’d walk you through all the crazy thoughts that went through my poor, aching head over those three days, but suffice it to say, it’s not worth the effort to take that walk.

    Of course, one of the problems, when I’m sick, is, I don’t feel like walking anywhere, or doing much of anything, physically. I kind of hunker down to ride the thing out. I don’t like to take cold medicine unless I really have to. It doesn’t seem to go well with my system.
  • A couple years ago, on New Year’s Eve, I wound up in the emergency room of a local hospital when some cold medicine I was taking dehydrated me so badly, I was suffering severe chest pains, thinking I was having a heart attack. Worst chest pains I’ve ever experienced. It was just a bad fever and deydration. I felt kind of foolish – but, at my age, you don’t take chances.

    So, I’ve found, my best thing to do, is to just do nothing. Lean into it, ride it out, let it go through my system, and do my best not to let my head talk me out of it. That was part of the problem that time I was sick a couple years ago. That cold hit me the week between Christmas and New Year. I was the acting boss in my shop, at the time, and didn’t think I could take the time off work that I needed to get over it. So, I took the medicine, and tried working through it. Not a good idea, as it turned out.

    In my current position, I don’t have a deputy. I haven’t had one for four months. It’s just me, so I feel like I have to be there all the time, which is kind of crazy. If you have to take off because you’re sick, you just have to do it. I’ve learned I can’t mess around with these things. Even though my head tries to tell me that I’m letting everyone down, I’m not being a good leader, in fact, I never have been, I’m a total imposter, and this time, this time, they’re going to finally figure it all out, while I’m not there, and so on. That’s just a small taste of what goes on in this addled brain of mine, when I’m sick like this.

    The good news is, I came across something in my bored rambling around, looking for something interesting to read, that’s helped me with the mental aspect of this. The 7 Day Mental Diet. I’ve done it before, and it really helps with all that mental negativity that seems to go along with being sick. It comes from Emmet Fox.
  • For seven days, you do your best to think only positive thoughts. When the negative thoughts come into your head, you simply don’t entertain them. Thank them for coming, and let them go right on through and out the other side. Acknowledge them, but don’t believe a word they try to tell you. Let it be just a bunch of negative “blah-blah-blah”, maybe even laugh at it, and then move on to some more positive thoughts. The negative thoughts eventually get pissed off and leave. “Don’t let the door hit ya on the way out”!

    I’m probably going to need one more day of riding this one out. I was thinking I could make it in to work today, but the cold has moved into my chest, and it would probably be a mistake to push it. Give it one more day – don’t buy the bullshit your head is trying to sell – and go back when you really are better, hopefully tomorrow.

    If they do figure it out, that you’ve been an imposter all along – if that’s the truth, then all will be well, because the truth will set you free. If that’s not where you’re supposed to be, then you’ll be one step closer to getting to where you are supposed to be. Yeah, that’s the ticket!

    More than likey, though, they’ll all welcome you back, hope that you’re feeling better, and life will go on. The work will still be there, and you’ll rise to each day’s challenge. The way I feel right now, I am not ready to rise to anything – so, home I stay, for one more day, to ride this bad boy out. No more entertaining of negative thoughts, though. Let ‘em come in, and watch ‘em go out. Hmmm - that might even be entertaining!
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