I am facing a personal truth thats hitting me hard these days
that being childless holds a double meaning, maybe triple, for me
first, of course is absence of children in my life - this does not have to
be obvious consequence of being childless and feeling that condition
as a loss in my life. Culturally, it works against me however.
-if you keep a scorecard for not sowing one's own seed I am informed that
genetically I never existed, a zero! Most people I know have had children
that are now grown and so they have empty nest which is different than
never having existed.
So feeling in this loss a personal judgment I looked
around at parents of young kids and parents whose children have become parents themselves.
I know they wrestle with their guilt and sense of obligation of what kind of world
they pass on. I am not so burdened nor obligated!
I can choose to do what I want and work with children that I care for!
I signed up as mentor in First Lego League which is hands- on
program to help kids feel comfortable in a world that places monetary value
on what they know in fields of science, technology, engineering and math
I know it from years of study and work in these different fields. May be I
can have some impact!