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  • This is what happens after a traumatic head injury. This also goes for vets returning from the war, boxers, kids in soccer camp.

    But this is about me:

    It took the paramedics, first responders 45 minutes to cut me from my truck. My trusty Toyota 4x4. Dark Blue with a cap on the back. not the original sin bin but it would do...

    I was t-boned by a driver who ran the light at an offramp well over 70+ mph. Most off ramps to a light are 25 mph. This one was 25mph to the light.

    Post head trauma.

    We all have a heard the saying "if you are knocked down get back up". Well I have been knocked down so many times and gotten back up that I have no direction. I am rudderless. this is were being lost comes in.

    The idea of lost.

    I have been lost for more than 10 years. I have seen friends go on to wealth and life. I have nothing that pushes me forward. I am so disconnected and worse, no friends or events to make me feel like I matter.

    In a word I don't.

    So on days when the pressure in my head gets me to despair. I push myself out the door and get on the motorcycle and ride. Ride till the anger comes up and I can scream it out, no one will hear, just the wind and the motor pulsing out a tune.

    After 50 miles there comes a smile as the nature of the earth envelopes me. I see great vast plains of hope and mountain ranges of joy. The Road King just keeps thumping out a tune.
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