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    Without taming yourself, you cannot train yourself. You are somewhat wild and untamable, so we have to catch you and put you in a zoo, like a wild gorilla. Traditionally, this particular zoo is known as monasticism. Actually we do not catch the gorilla, but it walks into our trap. Once it is caught, the best thing to do is to educate and civilize that gorilla. Shamatha or mindfulness practice actually tames that gorilla; it creates an environment of discipline.
    Chogyam Trungpa

    I am walking down a dark and poorly lit city street and I pass a cage with a gorilla and the door is open. I can hear him following me. I begin to run and then he begins to run. I run faster and he runs faster. I am now running as fast as I can down the street and the gorilla is catching up with me. I can almost feel his breath on my back. Suddenly I am lucid and I stop, wheel around and face him, as I have learned to do when a dream character is in hot pursuit or when I feel in dream danger. I gaze steadily into his eyes and he returns my look with confusion. I realize that he isn't chasing me, he is trying to catch up with me. I name him Hairy.

    Gorilla walks behind me covering my back, in front of me clearing obstacles, and beside me giving me strength and resilience; he is my big hairy loving friend. Have I been running away from my responsibility as a woman to heal my own masculine side?

    After I finished writing 'A Tale of Woman Who Wanted a Vacation', at ( I decided to programmed my dreams before I fell asleep for an answer to the question of 'What can I do to help heal the split of Yin/Yang, my own anima, my masculine side, that we women must heal before we can bridge the gap between feminine and masculine in our society and set the stage for the healing of humankind? This was the dream I received.

    Have I been running away from my responsibility as a woman to heal my own masculine side? Have I caged my power to keep it safe and is it chasing me, so that I will recognize that it is my responsibility as a woman to heal my own gap and to use both Yin and Yang energy in resonance and for the benefit of humankind?

    That balance that our Spaceship Earth requires between yin and yang begins with me and Hairy Dancing with Wildness, with freedom and with love. My gorilla must be free and gentled with love, not caged. He gives me powerful love and divine rage when it is necessary.
    Man's Yin is a gorilla in pain and she is the strength hidden in our animus and the fear of letting the gentle love loose. Without gentle love, masculine energy feels powerless and becomes destructive and enraged when the caged feminine energy is not recognized and loved. We must teach our boys to respect and responsibility in loving and caring for their feminine aspects and teach our girls to take responsibility and to love and respect their masculine aspects.

    Gorilla has been running wild, trying to create and manipulate life, through genetic manipulation of plants and animals; designer babies; attempting to manipulate weather; blowing up Earth for her coal and diamonds, oil and gas; contaminating water, air and soil; without looking at the consequences of these acts.

    It begins with me and it is my responsibility to heal myself and take responsibility for my actions that I carry out with love and respect with the best of my abilities.
  • (Yes, it took me over three years to get the sequel up here, sometimes I get busy and forget).
    Artwork is a fractal called 'Phoenix and Gnarl Play--Gorilla'.
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