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  • Our last day on the beach began with an early morning rise to catch the final sunrise on the beach, which was great, then I went back to sleep for an hour or so, just because I could. One of the things I love about being on vacation is naps. I take at least one a day. I wish our culture included a naptime in the middle of the work day. I think it’s healthy.

    As I was waking up from my morning nap, I noticed a ringing in my left ear. It was a very distinct, persistent ring - a brand new symptom of whatever is going on in my inner ear. It was really annoying. I got up and fixed some eggs for breakfast, took a shower, and the ringing continued. It hasn’t stopped, since. At this point, it’s just there, and there seems to be nothing I can do about it, so I’m just trying to get used to it. It’s called tinnitus, and I guess a lot of people get it. Now, I am one of them. How thrilled I am!

    I went to my family doctor on Saturday, just to check it out and see if there was anything obviously wrong in there. By then, I was also experiencing vertigo, which was about right on time in the ten-day cycle – I get it once every ten days, almost without fail.

    They found a lot of wax build up in the ear, which was strange, as I’d just had it all cleaned out by the V.A. less than a month ago. It had to be flushed out, which, by the time they were done doing that, my vertigo was now off the charts. Of course, the ringing persisted through all of this.
  • Who knows what’s causing it? I’m hoping it’s not an indicator that something else, like tumor growth, is occurring in there. I’m not making any assumptions, since previously I had myself convinced that was what was causing the vertigo, when it turned out to not have anything to do with it – it was being caused by vestibular migraines. It’s all just basically a mess in there, and I just need to learn to deal with these odd symptoms, i.e. vertigo, ringing, wax build-up, and hearing loss. Who knows what might be next?

    What I do know is, whatever it is, I’m not going to let it get me down. It’s only what I have to deal with, and it could be a hell of a lot worse. I only write about it because this helps me to process what’s going on, and to realize how it really doesn’t help to complain about it. I’m just sharing what is going on, and looking forward to the next chapter in the continuing journey through the inner ear.

    At least, I get my hearing aid this Thursday, as long as they don’t cancel my appointment because of the papal presence in the district. Kathy’s sure they will. But if they don’t, I will be there, one way or the other. I’ll get up and leave super early, just to be sure. I have to drive around the Capital, where the pope will be addressing congress that same morning.
  • As for this morning, I woke up at 2:30 and couldn’t get back to sleep. I felt rested enough – I’d gone to bed at 9:30, so I’d had a good 5 hours, which is sometimes all I can manage – so, I got up, and worked on the qualifications write-up I have to do for work. I’d wanted to work on that this weekend, but with all the inner-ear drama and the vertigo nonsense, I couldn’t focus on it enough. I was kind of a waste, mentally. I felt fine this morning, so I worked on it, and got a draft done for my writing coach to review. I’d wanted to get that to her today, so I felt good about that.

    Now it’s 5:15, and I don’t have to leave for work until 7:30 – hmmm, I could probably manage to get a good hour-long nap in. I think I will! Naps rock. Maybe, I’ll emerge from this one without the ringing! One can only hope.
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