When I was a kid, I used to imagine I had a twin sister or big brother.
I have always felt a deep yearning for siblings.
My friends always complained about their brothers and sisters, but all I wanted was to share life with one (or two).
Before I knew about Audrianna, Cheyenne, Trevor and Quinn, I'd daydream about all the siblings I might have out in the world. I also dream that I was related to royalty, but that one was a little more far-fetched.
Meeting my siblings is honestly one of the most intimidating aspects of the whole trip, because I don't know what to expect. I know that meeting now is not the same as growing up together. I'm a full-grown adult. You can't just replicate the bonds that are formed during childhood. There are also many differences in the lives and homes we've known. I'm not sure I know how to bridge those gaps or how best to reach out. What I think is perfectly normal may not be normal to them, and vice versa.
I always figured I might someday gain siblings through brothers and sisters-in-law, but now that I've gone down this path, I get the chance to have ones that I actually share blood with. That concept just blows my mind. I'm so nervous to see how we will get along, anxious to learn how our personalities will interact. I'm afraid to have any expectations, because no relationship is ever as perfect as one you dream up. I think I'm going to be surprised by my siblings, and if my hunches are right, I think it'll be in a good way.
For now, I'm just counting down the days.